Kill the Witch

A friend I had been out of contact with for sometime recently asked me if I’d be up for dinner/coffee this week. I said, “Yes,” especially considering she’s been an incredible friend to me since second grade, and I of course, have been a typical douche bag. But I don’t think I ever treated HER like I did last year.

But that’s another story. The message I wanted to unpack today was her message to me, “Hey it’s a new year, new perspective…” Right? After an entire year of being a shitty friend, she still found the kind heart to look on the bright side and potentially forgive me.

This year has not started off the way I’ve wanted it to. 2009 has not felt like a fantastic start to a wonderful year. I’m not sure why. I think I have been avoiding a lot the past year. I’m not sure why, but I’m ready to address a lot.

I’m ready to address friendships that are DEAD. Let’s not kid ourselves, we’re forcing so much and it’s really pathetic. I have people in my life who WANT to be friends with me, they want to grow with me and work with me, and help me as much as I now truly want to help them. A few years getting drunk together doesn’t really cut it anymore for me.

I want to further my career. MZA has been incredible to me and I want to grow and advance with them.

I want to paint with the colors I created. Not yours. Mine.